So I've been in this funky kind of mood the last couple of days. And not to say it's a stink of a mood, because it's not. But I've been feeling like I have so much more potential then what I'm exerting. Not to mention that I've been on this 'road to self discovery' on the down low. But of course this could be the pregnancy heightening my emotions. But at the same time, this could be a good thing.
I feel like I'm really letting FEAR take over my path in life. I feel like because I'm about to bring a new baby into the world and because we just bought a new house (I know that threw you for a loop, details coming soon!!! And of course photos), I'm too afraid to really drop my job and pursue my passion/talent/what I'm good at/enjoy.
Do you ever feel that way? So secure where you are at (financially speaking) that you just don't have the courage to quit and pursue your passion.
It's saddening because I have always had the philosophy that you can do whatever you set your mind to and that you should pursue what makes you happy. But it's true what the 'adults' counter with: life happens (kids, house) and you really feel trapped.
Like I said it's not a stink mood I'm in because I'm happy with my job, but feel like I'm limiting myself, my abilities and my ambition. I want so much more for myself but I don't want to be selfish or irrational but quitting a secure and well paying job for uncertainty. If Daymien wasn't on the way this decision would be so easy. But I'm RESPONSIBLE for this little man's happiness.